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Wednesday, July 18, 2007Three hours of Mango's Place for toddler and baby: $39
One movie ticket to Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix: $6
One super yummy bento box: $0
The first time I've done something for myself in a year: priceless
Yep...that's right. I spent $45 today just so I could go see a movie. First movie I've seen in about a year.
Actually, what happened is this...
After several days of a nasty summer cold (temperature around 101 last night) my fever finally broke and I got some sleep. Emmitt decided to play nice as well and for the last two nights has gotten up at 1am and 6am, giving me about 5 hours of solid sleep each night.
I woke up with him at 6am this morning, nursed him for about ten minutes and put him back to bed. I was feeling pretty awake, so I figured why not just get up.
I headed out to the living room, checked my email and got some inspiration. An hour later, I had a full article ready to go up at Search Engine Guide. Elnora woke up about then, but still feeling sleepy simply curled up on the couch next to me to watch Clifford. Another hour after that and I'd made three more posts...pretty much wrapping up a day's work on the site.
I'd already made an appointment for the kids to go to Mango's Place today (they usually go on Tuesdays, but since I was sick, we cancelled) I decided to take advantage of it.
I dropped them off and headed to the movie theatre just down the road where I walked in to Harry Potter just as the previews were gearing up. After two and a half hours of peaceful, uninterrupted entertainment (and a super yummy bento I'd packed) I headed back to gather up the kids and head home.
What's funny is that I saw myself when I went to pick them up...
I don't mean I saw myself in the mirror, or that I had some big existential moment...I mean I saw myself in another mom.
I followed another mom and her little boy (I'd guess 15 months) into Mango's Place and waited while she filled out the paperwork to drop off her son. Based on her conversation with the front desk staff I assumed it was her first time there. The front desk worker finished up the paperwork and took the little boy back to the play room while she went to get Emmitt and Elnora.
I watched the mom look at her little boy as he walked away.
She was rooted to the spot, her eyes locked on him as he moved out of site.
"First time using Mango's Place?" I asked her?
"Yes" she responded. "I think I might have to stand here for a few minutes."
"I just brought my kids for the first time last month. They LOVE it here. My two year old talks about playing with the boys and girls whenever I tell her we're coming," I said.
"Really? They like it?"
"Yep. It's been a God-send for us. I work at home and it was getting really hard to get things done. I never wanted to use a day care, but they love it here and the interaction is great for them. Plus I can get things done now."
"Yeah...I only have my son and I can't get anything done..." she trailed off.
"It will be ok. I'll bet he just loves it here. The staff is great and I've been really impressed with the center so far."
"Really? Thank you." She looked at me, almost as if she was a bit embarrassed to be emotional.
"It's hard the first time. I remember."
"Thanks." She looked one last time and she left.
It's so hard for us, isn't it? To let go just a little bit?
But sometimes...for ourselves and for our kids, we have to.
Most days, that's going to mean giving me time to get work done, but every now and then...I think I might sneak in another movie.
Labels: Life as a Mom